smsed Sze Hui this morning. asked her if wanna go out today. so we met at 12 noon at 903 bus. went to Bugis Village. she was finding her sch bag. but couldn't find a suitable one. i walked past this shop & remember he din have enough T-shirts so i bought 2 T-shirts for him and i'm left with $8+ . then, walked back to Bugis Junction to take neoprints. after that, i'm left with $2.95 so i bought a fillet burger meal. just nice. then, we walked the whole Bugis Junction & we are back at the neoprints shop. we took another machine. lend $5 from Sze Hui to take neoprints. after that, we took escalator down to find her sis at Fish & Co. she treating both of us dinner but must wait for her get her work done first. so we crossed the road to This Fashion. we walked ard a few times. as we have nothing to do, so we took a top & a bottom to try it out. just nice her sis came out of the restaurant le. had our dinner at V8 Cafe. had Black Pepper Seafood Spaghetti. thx, Sze Hui's sis! so pai seh nehs. eat free dinner. anyway, we took 960 to Woodlands at 9pm. reached Causeway Point at 10pm. actually meeting him. but think it's too late. he gotta rest bahs. anyway, me & Sze Hui hanged ard Causeway Point cos' Sze Hui's mum not home tonight. she dun wanna go home so early, so do i. then, there's a grp of people standing there. looking at our direction. shouting "CHA BO!" means girl. we ignored & walked off. there's this girl came tapping on my shoulder. "eh. my friend wants your no. care to give?" i just shook my head. she went off. then, we headed to Civic Centre's Mac. sat there chatting without buying anything. ard 11.30pm, we went off. Sze Hui acc me to the bus stop near the bridge there. i walked home then. refused to ask kor to fetch me at first. starting to feel the danger when there's a few guys kept aiming at me. wanting my attention. so i called kor to come down to wait for me. on the way, was on the phone with Sze Hui. afraid she might be attack or something lidat. finally, we're safely home.
i dunno what's happening.. i dun wanna think further. you just made me hate you. i couldn't think gd abt what you'll do. i couldn't. bcos' when i tried to think that you still cares abt me, the more i'm hurt. you doesn't seem to care anymore. who am i to you? who actually am i? those memories of ours.. issit becoming only the past? what are you doing these few days? what have you been thinking? am i still in your mind? am i? everyday, i numb myself by going out. i hate staying at home! I HATE IT! esp. when i need to be at home at night. my tears start dropping every night. i got to slp at 1-2am. cos' i couldn't slp. i cried in order to get to slp. it's a wk since we broke. it's like months to me! everyday i'm living like hell. it sucks ok! everyday, i've been seeing the phone.. if you have sms me. everytime there's a msg, i always hope it's you. but now, i dun dare to even hope it's you. i dun wan always there's a disappointment. aix.
